I have decided to write about this as I feel like a hypocrite for advising people to be more open about certain experiences, yet haven’t done so…

I have decided to write about this as I feel like a hypocrite for advising people to be more open about certain experiences, yet haven’t done so myself. I am posting this in the hopes that it reaches someone out there. I think going into specifics would take up too many words, so I will just say that in middle school I was pretty much the target of a lot of bullying to the point that I had to transfer schools. There’s no need to be vengeful against the people who took part in it, nor to be bitter about the friends I lost. But I will say that it was definitely hurtful, a fact which even I ignore often because I feel that I’ve moved on. When it had happened, I didn’t have anyone to turn to (except my parents, who finally saw how the constant bullying was affecting me). But I did react by pretending to be sick, basically whatever it took not to go to school. There are still moments when I catch myself deliberately trying to hold myself back from doing something or saying something because I’m afraid of what people will say, what they will think. Yet I believe that such an experience is partly what draws me to volunteer at the National Runaway Switchboard. As a result of that experience, I am able to empathize more strongly with callers who feel lost because no one is listening. And sometimes that silence from others who are supposed to care for you is what hurts even more. – Allyson

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  • Allyson,
    Great job pushing that energy into the positive. Revenge is meaningless when the young people around you couldn’t possibly comprehend the damage that they were doing against you. Instead of focusing on the negative you are using that energy for the positive.

    Thank you,

    -Marty