It feels great to be happy. You are on top of the world and nothing can bring you down. It is healthy to maintain happy feelings as much as possible.…

It feels great to be happy. You are on top of the world and nothing can bring you down. It is healthy to maintain happy feelings as much as possible. There is one feeling that many people fear; loneliness. Loneliness is a feeling in the category of depression .I see a difference in loneliness and being lonely. There are times where I am alone and long for company but I am not lonely. When I am lonely, I feel an internal absence that eats my insides. There is a point where no matter how much company I have, I am still lonely on the inside and can’t break free. Not being able to free myself causes me to be depressed. I am confused and don’t know what to do with myself. I want to be happy but there is something inside of me that just wont let me. I talk to friends searching for happiness within their words and I even take myself shopping hoping that I can cheer myself up. That only lasts for a short while. Afterward, I just realize that I am still lonely and I feel trapped and by myself. Sometimes I cry, sometimes I write, sometimes I listen to music, but nothing ever works. I just remain lonely, lost and confused. Now I am in a better stage in my life. I am overall a happy person and I am living a healthier life. It is wonderful to now feel so great. Only as the days bypass, I can’t help but wonder when the loneliness will return.
– Sharenna