Throughout my experience as a homeless youth the most painful and exasperating emotion was that of not belonging. I constantly felt that people…

Throughout my experience as a homeless youth the most painful and exasperating emotion was that of not belonging. I constantly felt that people everywhere did not care about me or others like me. Unfortunately in some cases this was truth. I sought out friends that may not have been the best for me and entered situations that wound me up in jail, despair, and dissatisfaction all for the sake of fitting in or being liked. One of the hardest lessons of my life and one that I’m still working on is that one must fully love themselves in order to have others see their greatness or even start liking them. Now here is the proverbial thorn in the lions paw. How does one love oneself? For me this was especially difficult as I come from a background of physical, emotional and sexual abuse that left me feeling like a nothing, like I had no power and no heart or soul. I know this sounds cliché but what really saved me is that I realized no matter if I die or drown myself the wind still caresses me and the sun will still warm the earth. In essence I realized how small I was and how small things sometimes bring greatest change. I began to do things I love that harmed nothing and when the reward was feeling great I clung to it and repeated this. The results compounded fast. I beg you believe in yourself.
– Kevin

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