For a person that’s usually very strict with themselves, I find it terrifying to feel myself even have an urge to do something without considering the…

For a person that’s usually very strict with themselves, I find it terrifying to feel myself even have an urge to do something without considering the consequences. Sure, I’ll blurt out a random order at a restaurant once in a while, though not without making sure of who doesn’t like the smell of the food. Maybe it’s because I feel an innate need to please, though that doesn’t sound to pleasant when it’s phrased like that. Or it could be that I feel a bit dangerous when I place my needs, my wants, above all else. It’s been happening a lot recently and the consequences have been disastrous. Is it safe to say that we all need a few emotional inhibitions? Without them we’d be entirely self-serving, though without a bit of self-service, would we really be ourselves? Keep in mind, it’s not always alright to steal a boyfriend or girlfriend unless you have permission. And surely, there are some people whose permission comes from themselves. Just no. When I see people who obviously don’t have any I’m totally blown away just by their existence, never mind what they’ve said or done; by then I’ve changed the channel so that they’re just a whirr of white noise to me. I think it’s because I don’t want to pick up their habits, probably because I have some obscene desire to be unhappy. Do you have to indulge yourself, regardless of the consequences of others, at least once in a while?
– Eric

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